God is Great

So far this year at school has been good, but challenging. being sick a lot hinders the school work but i have had such awesome experiences with God already. He is doing an amazing work in me and im excited to see him continue. it makes me wonder what he all has in store for my life! i have come to far to lose it now, i dont want to go backwards in our relationship anymore. God has been soo good to me over the years and its time i start trying to keep things moving forward! my past is the past and i dont need to live in it or by it. i am a different person and thats what matters now! i live my life for the one and only God! he loves me so much and that is all i need in life to be happy and to have peace!

God sometimes i wonder why its so hard to keep up in our relationship.
i cheat you way too often. i know things need to get better.
God please keep the devil away from me and out of my mind so i can get to where i know i can be with you! Satan often convinces me that we are good enough where we are at, but the truth is, we arent. im gonna try harder than ever to get things to a better place. i need you! i want your light to shine through me always! God please help me.

well its bin a while since ive written on here...bible school has been pretty awesome definately learning a lot/ finiding out how much i really did not know about the bible! the boyfriend is absolutly amazing as well. yesterday in church the pastor was speaking on how we need to love anyways not love because of certain things. i really enjoyed the message because no matter where you go or what you do in life there are always going to be poeple that are hard to love but to love them anyways is a good challenge! i have seen the benefits of being loved anyways and its really awesome. some people know that i have a past that at times is hard to deal with but you know what, God loves me anyways and my bf chooses to love me anyways. i feel so blessed by the poeple who choose to love no matter what. thats what i want to be able to do for all people that are in my life. not to love them because they are good to me or because they make me happy but love them anywas even if they mess up and fail sometimes. even i dont want to love them some days but i choose to love them anyways! if people all over the world could do this think of how wonderful the world could be. unfortunatly lots of us including christians love because not anyways.....

well today i started my first class. its two week class that involves a heck of a lot of reading. its called Pentateuch, pretty self explanitory! in the next two weeks il be studying the first 5 books of the bible. it should be pretty awesome! i am taking a big load this year, 18 credit hour classes. which means lots n lots of homework, i also am taking piano lessons so i can hopefully one day play beautiful angelic music. i am bored out of my mind today, classes are only in the morning, i have no homework and im not involved in sports which means i have all afternoons and evenings off! whoo hoo! it will be wonderful once all the homework comes, it will give me lots of time to get it done!

today i registered for my classes! it should be sweet but a lot of work...makin some new friends which is sweet and my roomie is fantastic...love you KP! at 1230 we have lunch mm yummi...the food by the way is delicous...and im not to sure whats after lunch...anyways so far so good!

first day of hangin out at school was great! i have an awesome roomie and really lookin forward to this year! today we are having church and food haha thats about all i know for now!

wow i didnt think the goodbyes would be this difficult..i know im gonna have an awesome time at school but say bye to my friends is so hard! bitersweet...not really feeling ready to leave but i know i need to..the tears are setting in and its quite unfortuante, thought id be ok...o well..i know il see them again!